Lately I have been having this overwhelming urge to let people I know in “real life” in on the secrets of this blog. As it stands, there are only three people who could identify my on the street that know how to get here. The only reason those people know about my boolshitz is that I trust them inherently. (As a side note, I find it terribly amusing that two of those three people have NEVER posted anything here, and the third only does so on very rare occasions. But I digress…)

I’m really not sure why I keep thinking about these things. Part of me thinks it’s because I want certain people that I love and trust to see the “real” me. Another part thinks it may just be my exhibitionist tendencies rising to the surface. To be honest, I really have no clue why it keeps popping in my head.

So, I ask you, fellow bloggers, do you think it wise or unwise to reveal this side of my life to others? If you do think it’s okay to do so, do you have any advice about how to decide who should be granted access or how?

I really worry that I am going to just cave in and spill the beans before the time is right. I need you guys to talk me down if I’m about to make a huge mistake here! LOL

Yep.

That’s where I’ve been.

It really isn’t personal. I promise.

I just needed a break. I needed some time to clear my thoughts and make sure I have all my priorities in order.

Now, mind you, I know that gambling is on that list. But trust me, it isn’t really a top priority. I just find that mindlessly pushing the buttons on a video poker machine seems to be an awesome way to clear my mind. I can just sit there, losing (and sometimes winning LOL) money, and think about whatever I want. I can find my zen in the incessant beep, beep, beep of the machine. I love it.

In the past two weeks I have read about 5 books (I say about because I am almost done with the fifth one), gambled to my heart’s content, and checked the web less than once a day. I feel fantastic.

But the bad part is that I miss you guys. 

I want to make it up to you.

So here is what I propose:

Having missed the last two (maybe even three) HNTs, I feel that you guys should get to decide on what I should do for the next one. I am open to suggestions, and I will give them all serious consideration. The only thing I will not do is pose with another person.

So, there you have it… help me make my absence up to you…

Please?

Hey everyone!

I’m sorry I have been gone for so long. I truly didn’t intend to just abandon you like that. Nothing is wrong really; I just had some things I needed to deal with on the home front. I am healthy and happy and I will be getting back to regular posting as soon as I can.

Long story short, my mom wasn’t doing well. She’s okay now, and it honestly could have been a much bigger deal than it actually was. It’s just that she is my best friend in the world, and it’s always just been me and her. Essentially, we are all the other has in times of crisis. (No offense intended to my friends. I hope you guys know what I meant by that.) Anyway, when she tells me she needs me everything else gets put aside until she feels independently functional again. 

I miss you all, and I promise I will be back around to your pages very, very soon.

Please forgive me, and I can’t wait to hear how great you all are!

Much, much love…

-NJ-

I took some time today and visited the sites of my fellow bloggers. I don’t know why, but lately I just haven’t had much to say. But earlier, while I was on a friend’s page, he was talking about the same thing. He called it “losing his mojo”. What a perfect term!

I hope you all realize I haven’t abandoned you. I’m sorry I haven’t said much on your pages, either; but I fear that I really have nothing important to say right now. 

Perhaps the best thing to do at times like these are to just be still and listen. Right?

But not for long…

I am heading out of town this weekend to catch up with old friends and make some new ones. I haven’t abandoned you guys, but I fear I will be without internet access for the next three days or so (GASP!). 

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend, and I will see you all soon!

Much love and booty rubbin’s…

Is there somewhere I can go for a quick tutorial on designing my own page?

I like this one I have now, but it’s stolen (with permission, of course), and I would rather have something that is uniquely mine.

Can anyone out there point me in the right direction? Thanks!

-NJ-

Is there a way to make this blog “rated”?

I know that some of the material may end up being unsuitable for young eyes, and I don’t want anyone to stumble on something they don’t need to see, but I can’t seem to find a way to mark it as “18 & up” or anything like that.

Any advice?

Thanks in advance!