WOW!

It has been a long time since I posted for HNT! I guess I just wasn’t up to par, but I do apologize for being so slack. Even this week I still wasn’t sure what to do for HNT, so I dug through some older pics and found one I took to send AP while he was at work one day. This is what happens when he leaves me alone at his place and I get bored:

I guess he wouldn’t really see that that’s a bad thing, huh? LOL
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Now go see the other HNTer’s and say hello for me!

And don’t forget to stop by and show Os some love either!

Not much to say this week as work is kicking my ass with all its might, but here is my contribution:

This is one of the pics from my shoot last week.

I apologize for the lack of “completeness”, but I’m not really in a position to give up all my secrets just yet…

I hope you can forgive me. <3

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Don’t forget to say hello to Os! And be sure to check out the Other HNT as well!

Lately I have been spending a lot of time curled up with a book. There’s just something comforting about letting my mind wander in someone else’s fantasy. I don’t have to think about it for the most part. I can let myself laugh without caring if anyone else gets the joke. I don’t have to worry about what’s going to happen, because no matter what I think or feel the outcome was long ago decided. I can feel love and fear and regret and passion, all with the purity that comes only from being outside looking in. Reading is my escape. It’s my therapy and my release and my zen all rolled into one. I am so thankful that my mom taught me to enjoy this indulgence at such an early age. 

The best part of reading may be the fact that I can enjoy it anywhere, anytime, any way I see fit. I can read in the car (as long as I’m not driving LOL), I can sneak a chapter in on my lunch break in a crowded restaurant, or I can even read naked, snuggled up all by my lonesome in the world’s most comfortable bed. Usually this is the view I see when peering over my book:

I love reading in bed… that is all

Now go say hello to Os and all the other HNT’ers out there!

Things are getting a little more “in hand” these days, but I still feel as though I am spinning out of control more often than not….

(Can you tell I like playing with the camera these days? LOL)

My life is so out of focus lately. Things are racing past so quickly I can’t seem to focus on anything at all. I need to just reach out and grab something to hold onto. I need an anchor, something that will stop this spinning. I need to find my way out of this shitstorm I have created. 

I can’t seem to hold onto anything though. Everything is slipping through my fingers. I’m losing everything that is so precious to me.

At least I held onto the camera long enough, right?

Now go say hello to Os for me!

***EDIT: Apparently I have no idea what date it is. I set this to “auto post” on Thursday, but evidently I set it for next Thursday. Sorry about that.***

Well, here you go… I hope this gets me back in the good graces (at least a little).

I know it isn’t the best or most risque’ offering, but at least I’m showing you my good side, right?

Yep.

That’s where I’ve been.

It really isn’t personal. I promise.

I just needed a break. I needed some time to clear my thoughts and make sure I have all my priorities in order.

Now, mind you, I know that gambling is on that list. But trust me, it isn’t really a top priority. I just find that mindlessly pushing the buttons on a video poker machine seems to be an awesome way to clear my mind. I can just sit there, losing (and sometimes winning LOL) money, and think about whatever I want. I can find my zen in the incessant beep, beep, beep of the machine. I love it.

In the past two weeks I have read about 5 books (I say about because I am almost done with the fifth one), gambled to my heart’s content, and checked the web less than once a day. I feel fantastic.

But the bad part is that I miss you guys. 

I want to make it up to you.

So here is what I propose:

Having missed the last two (maybe even three) HNTs, I feel that you guys should get to decide on what I should do for the next one. I am open to suggestions, and I will give them all serious consideration. The only thing I will not do is pose with another person.

So, there you have it… help me make my absence up to you…

Please?

Okay everybody – I haven’t forgotten it’s HNT (well, at least it was HNT). I have been trying to find my camera cable all night! I took my pics like a good blogger, and I even wrote something to go along with the pictures. But when it came to uploading the pics from my camera to my computer I ran into a major issue – my cable is missing. 

If I can’t find it by early afternoon tomorrow I will just have to break down and buy a new one. Cross your fingers that I don’t have to do that, please! 

Either way, I will have something up for you guys by tomorrow.

 

Hi guys!

I didn’t sleep at all last night (damn insomnia!), but at least I managed to take a long, luxurious shower this morning – which I usually miss due to the normal last minute dash to work. As I was enjoying my steamy shower, it occurred to me that today is HNT and I had taken NO pictures yet! So I grabbed my camera as soon as I could get my hands dry, and here’s what you get:

I hope you all have a wonderful HNT! And I hope you all get to start your days as relaxed and refreshed as I did!

Don’t forget to say hello to Os and all the other HNT’ers out there, too!

Sorry guys, but it’s been a hell of a bad day.

I know I am not really doing my blogger duties, but this is all I have for you this week. 

I will try to think of something better by next HNT – suggestions are welcome!

Now go check out the source of it all – I’m sure there are much better contributions over there… LOL